Apparently, I was insane for thinking I could get photos taken and posted the day of or day after returning home from the hospital. Recovering from childbirth and launching into nursing at 35 is Definitely different/more difficult than it was at 28 And I really did forget how these first few months? go. I can get about one thing accomplished a day, maybe two. And thing includes shower, nap, laundry, any cooking... To clarify, I'm not complaining, just singing an ode to the powers of selective memory and the aging process.
This Willa-ren is a sweetheart though. WIth Auden & Matti (I think because I always thought we'd have more babies), I wasn't the kind of mom who just wanted to watch them sleep. She's likely our last and so I find myself doing just that. I'm a little nervous about going back to work so soon- ok, a lot. Not just because of sleep deprivation and the still-undetermined childcare situation, but because I'm afraid I won't be soaking in enough of her while she's this little. And I'm crying. I'm going to pretend it's the hormones and not actual sadness. It doesn't even bother me a Whole lot that this place is a mess and laundry needs to be done and I'm not getting much accomplished each day. I just want to hold her.
I do worry that the boys are being ignored a little at her expense. I've decided (and we'll see if this lasts knowing my personality) that I'm giving up any hobbies/non-essential housework for a good while to focus on being the best mom I can to all three. I think I've been too intent on accomplishing things (whether that's a clean house, a knit blanket, working, or whatever) before I let myself take the time to enjoy my family like I should. So that's my new year's resolution: more family, more mess.
Lastly, I really want to thank my Dad and Mom for driving all the way here to help us with these first few days. Chris left Sunday morning (for at least two weeks) and I don't know how I'd make it without the extra help. I love you both, sara
She's precious! Congratulations, and I love the resolution! Thinking of you all. -Cindy
Posted by: Cindy Hurst | Tuesday, January 01, 2013 at 09:31 AM
Our daughter is beautiful, good job babe. I like the resolution too. Can't wait to get back.
Posted by: chris | Tuesday, January 01, 2013 at 09:52 AM
I just got through talking to your mom and i heard how pretty she is and now see these pictures! congratulations, she is precious! ~ wendi
Posted by: wendi cox | Tuesday, January 01, 2013 at 09:20 PM
We're SO happy to see your newest! Bill thinks Willa looks just like Chris "but with more hair" ;)... I reserve judgment till I see her in real life! For once in my life I Wish I was in El Paso, to help out and hold that Baby Girl...Go ahead and revel in every minute--watching sleep, nursing in the nite, tickling for first smiles--even when you're Aware of "last baby chances" time still goes by too fast!! And, remember, Auden and Matti have certainly had all of your attention too, in their own times--most of us moms will never even consider homeschooling, f'rinstance...you've always BEEN the best mom there is. And as long as A & M feel included in the new baby routines, no reason to stop showing them how every new baby needs special attention, just like they had! Think of it as educating for parenthood--
One last reflection on mom hobbies/other interests...the things you regularly choose to do that don't have anything to do with kidlets aren't necessary a Bad thing! Things that make you You are important too--and your kids will agree someday. When Amy (oldest) was in high school, she wrote The most touching essay on her mom's scissors for an english class, telling about how the little embroidery pair I often carried on a ribbon 'round the neck (for yarn and thread ends) were such a meaningful icon during her growing-up years...always there. So, your camera and knitting needles are part of the family too! Love You--
Posted by: Cori Sherman North | Wednesday, January 02, 2013 at 06:36 PM
She's beautiful!!! Your dad showed me a picture too. She doesn't even look like a newborn. No cone, full face. She's gorgeous! And yes-- wonderful resolution!
Posted by: Aunt Becky | Wednesday, January 02, 2013 at 07:20 PM
Sara. She is perfect. Perfect! I hear you on feeling like you need to stop and savor - but it's near impossible when counters start getting cluttered, older kids go out the door with hair looking as if they've been raised by wolves.. You can do it, just breathe and let what you can - GO.
Posted by: Eileen | Thursday, January 03, 2013 at 03:10 PM